Until Then

 I'm sure if you met me and got me going on you probably heard her name roll off my tongue. I love her, I was just a boy making so many mistakes when I met her, I'll have to eventually get all that written down in words, but I met God because of that woman. I realize how unworthy I really was and still am, I need your help your faith, your hope that maybe even I could be forgiven. 

 My sister wants to think that if her love ended and her man and her were on a divorce he would be like me wild and crazy, set to not fuck another woman again. Though deep down she knows she hasn't cultivated a love like that, if she left him, he would be out there looking for his second wife and she knows it. I made a vow that day when I climbed the mountain and begged to God, I was asked to make her happy every day and I have failed so miserably.
 

 Since this I have been reborn, I still haven't been with another women since I met her, she a mark runed on to my heart. I don't want another woman to love me, beside the one who taught me how to love.

 So hopefully she one day turns on the news and sees me making a fuss about God, politics, or whatever, and she realizes how stupid we were.

 This is the short and clean version I will get you long and dirt version I promise. 

Last thing on the list that will get me off my quest would be a holy relic something I could weild and prove God's love to you guys. Like a Grail or my staff, but of the three things I could find this is the one I want the least.

I would prefer I not elected to lead or forced to wield powers of the divine instead I would hope of the three things I find on the road the one would be Amanda's love.